Lost identity 3 (Lost but found)

Self-discovery 

There's nothing as beautiful as finding self. Over the past few months I've learnt it's absolutely okay to be vulnerable in order to gain potentiality. For unknown reasons, I've always believed to be a multi-potentialite whereas I'm courageous. Bunch of confusing jargon buh I found myself around it.

Pick a boo, I see you... There's Nnessy, she's been hiding the whole time, now ready to flaunt the world.

I was a mess, crown diaries can sum that up. I didn't like Identifying myself as African though I love my afro kinky. Identity crisis... I'm grateful to my friend who gave me a different perspective of Africa. I am now proudly African, though it took ages to realise that. I know you might be in denial of who you are be it looks, culture, race, the list goes on but I feel it's time to appreciate self; so much joy attached to it.

I love creating trends, so not a follower, though the past few years I've been in-existent yet breathing. Alive not living. Simply not pursuing my ikigai. I lost the little girl in me, it felt as if she grew/died and there was literally nothing to live for. The girl who like adventures, dressing up, meeting new people and games just went kaboom! & vanished into the thin air. I became ma stranger to self let alone adding humans to my crew. I stopped creating my own blueprints, wasnt soaring or flying high either, I was stationary and domant. This sought of emptiness led me on a wild goose chase to self discovery which I'm grateful for. The past few months have been a roller-coaster ride of Self-discovery and transition.

I happen to have been admiring the courage of others and never classified myself as one. Recently I developed a habit of reading and I came across content on what courage is. Here are some definitions that capture my eye: being willing to accept change, being in a position to start something knew, doing the right thing the right way and way away if need be and many more. This is where I realized that most of my decisions were made based on courage and I have an element of a radical mindset in me. I noticed that losing Nnessy had made me into an alien I'm failing to identify. Gaining self was just magical. 

To whom it may concern, search for self and pursue your ikigai/purpose. One thing I know, you're a king/queen, majestically carry your crown with pride and courage. Cheers to Self-discovery. 

Thank you😊